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how do we know when we are trusting in God? no matter what the situation we are saying that we trust in God, but what does that really mean? what does that look like? i can trust in God if i decide to quite my job, or i can trust God in staying with my job. how do we honestly trust in God? or is it less of trusting IN Him and more of just trusting Him?

i feel as though i'm in a weird place right now. when i'm in class and actually think about it, i realize how much i love what i am doing. i could not imagine doing anything else but design. i also am being challenged through my philosophy and religion class, making me think deeper about God and realizing how naive and ignorant we are so much of the time. so many people are relativists and say we should all believe what we want and that's okay for you and this is okay for me. but this doesn't make any sense! that would make us all right 100% of the time, we would never be wrong we would never get any better or worse morally. don't you think if we actually lived life as though what i believe should be what you believe, things would be a lot different? when i was in rome, God was preparing me for all of this. He started to press into my mind more, making me think more of philosophy and scientific questions of why and how God can exist. i miss the way i was with my roommates, the discussions we had and the challenges we faced with five girls living together. in fact, i am missing a lot about rome, and i wasn't sure if i would really feel this way, but like in every case i am idealizing the past and remembering all the fun things and laughing at those which were horrible. i'm not thinking of all this in a bad way where i am trying to live through the past. i am just remembering.


i feel as though i haven't taken the time to write my thoughts. these aren't really much of my thoughts at all.