summer?

Last week was crazy but I guess it's over now. Senior portfolio night went well, pretty much my whole extended family came it was amazing. Even my brother came who has made it down to Ames once in four years, and how appropriate that he was here when I applied to get into graphic design my freshman year and the next time he comes is to see my senior show. Also my bestfriend's parents came, since she works in Chicago and couldn't make it over. Thanks Paul and Nanc for representing.






Afterward Andrea and I met up with some friends down at our usual bar, 212, and enjoyed a nice Franziskaner, and later on we danced it up at Boheme like we used to do when we had a life on Thursday nights.

I allowed myself a relaxing weekend with some friends at their lake home and skied in the freezing cold water. We literally felt numb when we got out, luckily there was a wet suit we squeezed ourselves into; no one is really sure how.






And now I am finishing out my finals week, I'm almost done making a dress and jacket for my fibers class tomorrow, and having a really hard time staying inside during the day to get my work done because it's been so nice.

I think it's hit me for the first time today that summer is pretty much here. That I have no job and no clue what's going to happen. That although school is done I need to mail all my stuff out to London so I can really understand what's happening with my life. I feel very useless right now or not purposeful. It seems like the unknown was okay while I was in school because I was so busy focusing on other things that were more relevant at the moment, but here I am realizing that this is it. I need to do something.

If I learned anything this week it is reevaluating intentions. I want to have pure intentions in all that I do, and I don't think anyone ever does. Even in conversations to God, in bearing everything to Him do I have hidden motives? Yes, sometimes I do. I hope though that there are times that in being completely honest that my intentions are utterly sincere and raw.