trivialness

What makes us so hard on ourselves? What is that we feel pressure from? Why can't we be confident in the decisions we make whether it be which garbage bags to buy or where to apply for jobs and live? Do these decisions have that much of an impact on our future? I know myself, I know that wherever I end up I will be satisfied for the time being. I'm the type of person to go with it, try not to complain and make the best out of the situation. I think we're missing the big picture. We are so IN IT right now we're not seeing this life for what it is. Decisions are not static so why are we viewing the next step as finality?

I'm frustrated with myself and with others around me. I think I've gotten past most of this questioning, I'm just going with it. I know where I'd like to go and what I'd like to do; so I'm going to try for it. If it doesn't work I will feel defeated but I also know that I'm trusting in God's hand in my life, and that there are probably much better things than I am picturing. And this is fine with me.

We need to get past the tiny details we are focusing on, the little parts of what we think are so important and step back. There's much more to life than what typeface I use and where I should position it on a page. Who cares, it's trivial.

So with that, I'm going to go play soccer in the rain and get muddy, enjoy myself and thank God for the strength he gives me each day.